Feelings About You

You don't need me,

I need you. 

I want you, 

This much is true. 

I tried.

No that's a lie. 

I didn't try. 

But I fell,

God I fell so hard, 

For you,

Which really I didn't mean to do. 

It was supposed to be Vaibhav not Kunal. 

But either way I can't have it all. 

I can't have my cake and eat it too,

My dreams can't come true,

Because I love you and you'll never love me back. 

I feel like I'm under attack,

I feel like something is wrong,

Like there is no where I belong. 

It's not fair,

It's not fair how much I care.

I want your heart,

But she has it.

I want your time, 

But work has it.

If you really wanted something you would make time,

I guess you don't want me.

I'm not just some dame

Who can be tamed,

To prescribe to your every wish,

But damn how nice it feels when we kiss,

I miss you when we can't be near,

My heart warms when you call me dear,

I call you babe,

I wish it was true.

I wish you were my babe,

My significant other, my boo.

I wish I could say how in love I am with you.

But I can't, cuz you'll leave.

I can't because you speaking the truth will surely break me.

I didn't mean to fall for you.

It wasn't the plan.

But here I am.

Heart open, arms outstretched,

Standing here scared to death,

That without you I'll die alone.

You love her but about me care.

I'm just a filler, and then I turn and suddenly your there.

Wanting me. 

How can this be? 

I'm so confused.

You told me it was lack of time.

But I don't know what to believe.

My heart is telling me to stay,

And my mind is telling me to leave. 

I'm not trying to change you. 

Really I'm not.

I'm just sitting here wishing. 

Wishing that acting like we are together made it real.

But acting isn't real.

So the moral of the story is,

Feelings suck,

I'm not enough,

And you can have it your way but I can't have it my way. 

I'm not sorry,

Because you kissed me.

But I am sorry for caring,

Because apparently you don't need it.