Sweet (or Not So Sweet) Kisses

I think every time I lost someone whether or not by choice; I lost a little bit of myself. Part of me died. Similarly, in reverse when I gain someone. When the love me; when they are my friend I gain a bit of me back. Maybe not the same part that I lost, but a better "different" part of me. I don't know if I have more of me lost or more of me gained at the moment. I just thought I'd make a tribute to all the people I've kissed with one sentence about each of them. How I feel about them or whatever. This is them in order and for their sake I am just giving them numbers no names. If you are one of the 18 I hope you can figure out who you are.
1) You are not the person you were, but back then it was a big deal.
2) You are an asshole, but you are my asshole.
3) You are my first love; you are the worst, but still I think of you.
4) My biggest rebound ever, you are so gross, but you helped me try to move on.
5) God you broke me and I don't think you will ever understand how much I really liked you.
6) I believed that you really loved me and you did once, but that was it.
7) I'm sorry I used you, but we aren't even remotely similar.
8) I care about you more than you'll ever know, but a relationship was just never in the cards for us.
9) It was impulsive and strange to others maybe, but you are a real sweetheart.
10) You used me in more ways than one; I guess what goes around comes around.
11) I was a fool and all I hear is your voice saying, "You don't want this do you?"
12) It's still complicated and confusing, but the truth is I think you are playing  me.
13) You are my best friend and it was bound to happen sooner or later.
14) You're just a kid, you remind me a lot of #2, but i know you'll turn out fine.
15) You weren't even on my radar, I found you and it was great, until you pulled a #5.
16) It was a dare, but you meant so much more to me than any game.

17) You are really attractive, but it was nothing more than a meaningless kiss at a party.
18) I really thought it might work and now I'm worried I scared you off entirely.

So that's all for now guys. Until next time catch you on the flip side.