Please open the damn door!
I miss you.
You’re an asshole, but still I miss you.
But still I love you.
But still I know that no one will ever be you.
Stupid wedding!
Stupid FUCKING wedding!
Making me think of you.
Think of your promise,
Of what you wanted to do all those years ago.
7.
7 years and I still love you.
7 years and I still see it like it was yesterday.
7 years and I still have Shane days.
Just your name, or anyone with it, makes my heart jump.
Jump then sink.
So low death would be a relief.
I know,
I know,
I fucking know we can’t be together.
Then why oh why does some part of me hope we can be?
Maybe part of you wishes that too.
I know that isn’t true.
Who am I kidding?
I know you’ll open it.
But it’s been longer than usual so I’m getting worried.
Worried it will really shut this time.
Worried I’ll never talk to you again.
Worried you won’t keep your promise.
Forever and always never otherwise.
You promised!
Please unblock me.
Please text me.
Please call me.
Please snap chat me.
I’ll take anything.
Just please open the damn door.
Please!
Sunday, October 6, 2019
Monday, August 26, 2019
Dating Apps
Dear People On Dating Apps,
You put your height in the app you don’t have to list that in your bio. It doesn’t matter!!! While we are on the topic of bios not writing one just tells me how much you can’t hold a conversation. If you can’t even talk about yourself for one paragraph than why would I go on a date with you?!? How in the world are all the people on dating apps active, indecisive (beach or mountains just pick one!!! Both is not an answer), outdoor activity loving, conservative/moderate, POT heads!?! Am I the only person left in CA who doesn’t smoke weed or has a vape pen?? Do you think the more “pretty” you are the less you have to write about yourself (less read as zero)? I guess it works out for you because your pictures speak volumes. Fuck boy, fuck boy, fuck boy and my finger swipes left, left, left. My profile features a picture of me at OC Pride wearing a shirt that clearly says “I am Asexual” with fucking LGBTQ+ flags painted on my face. For god sakes tell me why you ask me if I’m down to fuck or anything closely related to sex!?! It’s my profile picture. It’s in clear view! It’s not a revealing top. There is nothing to distract you. Gah! Unmatch.
What I want to say on my profile:
NOT DTF!!! If you are swipe left!
If you ❤️ weed, vaping, or cigs. Left!
Your big catch from fishing, your muscles, and your facial hair DOES NOT impress me one FUCKING bit!
No I’m not an outside person. I hate beer and coffee. Isn’t anyone here for a long time anymore?!?
My idea of a perfect date is dinner and a movie or kicking your butt at a card/board game. I like drinking cocktails, talking about real shit, food, naps, movies, and Disney. My favorite thing to do is absolutely nothing at all. I think too much and I don’t with the flow. Looking for something romantically exclusive.
Again for the person in the back I’M QUEER AND I DON’T WANT TO FUCK YOU!!!
That’s all for now until next time catch ya on the flip side.
Seriously pissed off and utterly hopeless,
Ky
You put your height in the app you don’t have to list that in your bio. It doesn’t matter!!! While we are on the topic of bios not writing one just tells me how much you can’t hold a conversation. If you can’t even talk about yourself for one paragraph than why would I go on a date with you?!? How in the world are all the people on dating apps active, indecisive (beach or mountains just pick one!!! Both is not an answer), outdoor activity loving, conservative/moderate, POT heads!?! Am I the only person left in CA who doesn’t smoke weed or has a vape pen?? Do you think the more “pretty” you are the less you have to write about yourself (less read as zero)? I guess it works out for you because your pictures speak volumes. Fuck boy, fuck boy, fuck boy and my finger swipes left, left, left. My profile features a picture of me at OC Pride wearing a shirt that clearly says “I am Asexual” with fucking LGBTQ+ flags painted on my face. For god sakes tell me why you ask me if I’m down to fuck or anything closely related to sex!?! It’s my profile picture. It’s in clear view! It’s not a revealing top. There is nothing to distract you. Gah! Unmatch.
What I want to say on my profile:
NOT DTF!!! If you are swipe left!
If you ❤️ weed, vaping, or cigs. Left!
Your big catch from fishing, your muscles, and your facial hair DOES NOT impress me one FUCKING bit!
No I’m not an outside person. I hate beer and coffee. Isn’t anyone here for a long time anymore?!?
My idea of a perfect date is dinner and a movie or kicking your butt at a card/board game. I like drinking cocktails, talking about real shit, food, naps, movies, and Disney. My favorite thing to do is absolutely nothing at all. I think too much and I don’t with the flow. Looking for something romantically exclusive.
Again for the person in the back I’M QUEER AND I DON’T WANT TO FUCK YOU!!!
That’s all for now until next time catch ya on the flip side.
Seriously pissed off and utterly hopeless,
Ky
Wednesday, July 10, 2019
You Don't Know; It Hurts You
What you don't know does hurt you,
Your ignorance is bliss.
You don't know what challenge is,
This phone barely rings,
You sit in your office like a queen in a castle,
Thinking you are some shit,
Ruling the land saying,
"Look at me, look at me."
"I work hard!"
"I do good!"
"Look at all I go through"
"The struggle is real"
Well let me tell you... you ain't shit.
And your struggle isn't real.
I rarely got to sit in peace,
Pee in peace,
Let alone eat in peace.
There is no peace when Kamira is around.
Talking your ear off,
Wearing you down.
Or G threatening to hit you,
Wanting to go to the hospital,
Or Lita running on the freeway,
Beating the shit out of you,
Or the kids hopping over the fence,
As you fall on your ass chasing them,
Filing a missing persons report,
Waiting for CHP,
Or CAT,
Or arguing with the motherfucking CMPD!
Restraining kids,
And bleeding as a result.
Pulling over on a busy street,
Getting spit on,
Punched in the face,
Broken sunglasses,
$550 down the drain.
Being cursed at,
"BITCH!"
Yelled at,
"LEAVE ME ALONE!"
When you aren't allowed to do that.
Might as well have put a target on your back.
What I'm trying to say is...
Walk a mile in my shoes,
Then tell me your job is hard.
Then tell me it's a busy day.
Oh wait you'd cry trying,
You'd die trying,
No you'd never complain again!
Because this shit is a walk in the park,
A piece cake.
I could do it with my eyes closed,
Oh wait! There's nothing to do!
What you don't know does hurt you,
Your clients,
Your staff,
And me!
So just fuck off,
And STFU!
Your ignorance is bliss.
You don't know what challenge is,
This phone barely rings,
You sit in your office like a queen in a castle,
Thinking you are some shit,
Ruling the land saying,
"Look at me, look at me."
"I work hard!"
"I do good!"
"Look at all I go through"
"The struggle is real"
Well let me tell you... you ain't shit.
And your struggle isn't real.
I rarely got to sit in peace,
Pee in peace,
Let alone eat in peace.
There is no peace when Kamira is around.
Talking your ear off,
Wearing you down.
Or G threatening to hit you,
Wanting to go to the hospital,
Or Lita running on the freeway,
Beating the shit out of you,
Or the kids hopping over the fence,
As you fall on your ass chasing them,
Filing a missing persons report,
Waiting for CHP,
Or CAT,
Or arguing with the motherfucking CMPD!
Restraining kids,
And bleeding as a result.
Pulling over on a busy street,
Getting spit on,
Punched in the face,
Broken sunglasses,
$550 down the drain.
Being cursed at,
"BITCH!"
Yelled at,
"LEAVE ME ALONE!"
When you aren't allowed to do that.
Might as well have put a target on your back.
What I'm trying to say is...
Walk a mile in my shoes,
Then tell me your job is hard.
Then tell me it's a busy day.
Oh wait you'd cry trying,
You'd die trying,
No you'd never complain again!
Because this shit is a walk in the park,
A piece cake.
I could do it with my eyes closed,
Oh wait! There's nothing to do!
What you don't know does hurt you,
Your clients,
Your staff,
And me!
So just fuck off,
And STFU!
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