Wednesday, February 22, 2017

So

So you're dead.
So you're moving out of the house that will forever be in my head,
So I'm going back there with all you,
And all that motherfucking drama too,
So I got accepted now what?
I'm still here in this rut.
Or maybe I'm not; maybe I'm climbing out,
But I'm weighed down by this self doubt.
If you were here you'd tell me I could do it,
If you weren't moving we'd still be apart,
I still need a job,
Acceptance is something,
You try.
Don't you?
So would they love me if they knew sometimes I wanna be a boy?
So can I tell them I want to be called Ky?
Can a start anew in a new school with new people?
So,
Sew,
Sue.
I miss you.
You left me,
And he left me,
And I left,
And I pushed,
And I broke down
But you were there
So,
So I'm just supposed to live on?
Really?
How does that work?
How can I go through my life and all the accomplishments knowing you're so,
So,
So,
SO
Fucking far away!
I don't feel you, I can barely hear you, and I'm afraid.
So here I am
So here I stay
Wondering if you know?
Wondering if we'll ever see each other again?
Wondering if I can ever really let go of the past?
Wondering if love can last?
Wondering if I chose the right path?
Or maybe I'm just lying to myself.
I wish you were
So selfish I know
But you were the only one who really understood.
So.... yeah.